Je T'aime and Goodbye

I'm sorry you had to feel tied down to me. I swear the leash on you wasn't that tight. Did she really make you as happy as I could make you? True my eyes will never be as blue as hers since mine are a dark brown, but I gave you anything you wanted. I saw your regret twinkling in your hazel eyes when I asked what you did at work and I felt your guilt every time our lips met. Her dirty blond curls fit her frame perfectly, yes, she is beautiful but she hurt you with out you even knowing. She went behind your back like you did to me. Oh I would do anything for you and I know you tried to make me happy, but your touch lacked passion and that spark that was once there is nonexistent.

I miss you when you leave. Every time you walk out that door I feel so cold because I know where you are going. You gave me a hesitant kiss and practically ran out of the house. I know I can't live like this anymore and I don't want to hurt you. I just can't keep watching the damn clock on the wall knowing with each hour that passes I just feel myself die a little inside. I never look forward when you come home with your messy brown hair and your poor attempt at hiding the little nips around your neck. You would turn your flushed face away from me and looked down in shame. I gave up on arguments long ago. This time I would be free from this hurt. So I got up, got my suitcase and left out the front door with out looking back to answer your pleas for me to stay.

For forgiveness.

It was impossible to stop the pathetic tears from running down my pale cheeks and I made no attempt to wipe them away. It took every fiber not to turn back to you. I'm sorry I'm not strong enough to wallow in my own misery for you everyday while you go back to her. So for now...

Je T'aime and Goodbye.