Waking up is the Hard Part

I caught myself staring again
It's killing me, why can't I just tell you?
I can't even talk to you without so much as slipping up
Don't you see my feelings for you?
Gosh and you probably don't even notice me
I'm not strong enough to walk by you
I don't even try dreaming
They're full of lies and betrayel
Because everytime I wake up
You dont treat me like you do in my dreams
It just breaks me more
You make me broken 
And you don't even realize your doing it